Aaaaaaaaaaaargh. Having a blog is no light undertaking. It's almost been a year since my last post. Good grief. Well here goes me trying again. Shees this is insane.
This last year has been a blur. The focus has been on surviving the Crohn's and trying to find a way to make my life work as a bigger picture. It's like my life hit pause... again. But there is good news. I recently had a colonoscopy/gastroscopy and for the first time in around four years, the specialist says there is improvement.
It is an immense thing to take in. I hadn't realised how much I had internalised the words from various doctors - especially the mutterings of death and how I was "at the end of the road". It meant putting my life on hold even if it was a subconscious decision.
Being told there is hope. Wow. It was as if this doom blanket had been lifted off my shoulders. So now I am trying to work out how to make my life work because while there has been improvement I still have to cope with low energy levels and fuzzed up head where focussing is difficult. I am still angry that half of my thirties was taken away. But that is a whole other story.
This year really is a new start for me. Here is to 2010.
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